Renascence...

i have been waiting,
watching what you are looking for,
I've been screaming,
trying to know if you'll hear me.

now that i know you,
it all seems so easy.
for what I'm going to do,
will wipe you out for eternity.

many have fallen
in trying to break me.
now that I'm calling,
i want you to see.

when i start screaming,
i want you to know,
from ashes am rising.
its time for you to go.

unheard cries...

As I stifle yet another cry,
I let yet another part of me die,
How long do I carry on?
When do I get to see the light of dawn?

Go ahead, hurt me again,
Am now used to all the pain,
Go ahead, inflict some more,
Break the heart you’ve already torn.

My tears no longer fall,
I choke and take it all.
Bury it deep inside me,
Try not to let you see.

I let another scream die,
Can’t break free, no matter how hard I try.
You see all the pain and hurt,
& yet choose to leave this cry unheard.

but how can i?

I wish I could just walk away,
Pretend this never happened,
But my past refuses to leave me,
Nothing lets me forget your effrontery.

I try to garner the courage,
To look up and look into your eyes,
To be able to tell you that I’m alright,
When all I want is for you to hold me tight.

I remember the day you broke my heart,
I pretended that I didn’t feel a thing,
But how can I forgive you?
Believe that I can forget you?

You were the light in my life,
The hope when all else failed,
The truth amidst all fallacy,
But how was I to know that someday,
You would fail me……

..............

It has always been easier to pretend,
Than trying to bring this pain to an end.
I rather drift away from you,
Drift away while the memories are few.
I should have known right from the start,
I can’t believe I let you break my heart.
Now suddenly your smile seems fake,
All your promises have started to break.
You tell me your sorry and everything is the same,
But I find it hard to accept your claim.
I’ve believed in your lies for too long,
All my trust in you has now long gone.
I don’t need you and neither do you,
Its time to stop pretending, I’ll start my life anew,
Only this time….without you.