Doesn't Hurt!

Imagery

I told you the words won't rhyme,
The birds won't sing, the bells won't chime.
The beauty you held, the truth you'd deny,
The way you'd believe every single lie.
And now you're world is crashing down,
smashed, broken and falling around.
I can't see tears flowing out,
Still in shock, are you in doubt?
Did you not believe me when I said,
That it's over now, it's time we fled.

Go away, it's over now!
Go. Find a way out somehow.

~Fin~

Its time I said goodbye,
Left words unsaid for far too long.
There is little left to do,
Little I can say to put it right.
I've let you down everytime,
I see the look in your eyes.
Yes, I saw you cry,
Heard you deny.
It's not your fault, it's all mine.
So I'm running away,
Not for you to find.
Maybe you'll forgive me someday,
For running, for leaving this way.

"Everything that comes together will fall apart someday!"

I may be vain, but I do not want to die without making sure that a considerable population has read everything that I have to say. I want to be famous enough for people to want to know how I became the person that I did....and I want them to read this blog. It may not be great, but it is part of who I am. I will be miserable if the blog died with me! That just wouldn't do..

Its time!

Its been 3 weeks now,
the sand is soaked by tears unleashed by the heavens,
it took it all and its been far too kind,
the mercy has been tested now.

you cried too long, you cried too much
now the battle rages inside of me
too long I fought this war for you,
its time you fight for me too!

Why me?

Oh prettyness!
You smiled at me,
What was it that you did see?
Was it the broken heart,
or the loss of hope
that gave you such glee?

Tell me that you smiled at me,
not because it was mercy
but because you truly felt,
understood,
what you did to me.

Tell me that it couldn't be.
It was just a dream I dared to see.
That you are not so kind,
but a cruel minion of the devil
that everyone knows you to be.

Dimensions

This pretentious world leaves me cold, she said. Chills, freezes and breaks all hopes one could ever nurture. Its easy to get lost in the web. To believe the lies to be true, to confuse myth with reality and so easy to live the lie. Isn't it warmer to be burnt in the fire of the deception than to step out and take a walk in the rain.
She laughs a hollow laugh as she puts on her hallowed jewels.

I could get used to this, she smiled at the reflection in the mirror. An image that fought so hard to fit in and yet not get lost in the crowd.
"What is it like to laugh?" she asked.
But you just laughed, I questioned as I held up the trail of her gown.
Laugh? That's not a laugh. Its just a crackle that emerges every time you want to scream. You'll learn little one, you're still new. You'll learn very soon....

Let's forget he existed.

Why would you want me to say things I am trying so hard to hide from the rest of the world?

What I thought would be a new beginning turned out to be a disaster I can't wait to put an end to!

I won't find you. If we were meant to be, you will find me!

Maybe in another lifetime

I know this is not going to end the way I want it to. I know I have damaged things beyond repair. This life wasn’t meant to get things going my way..but maybe, in another lifetime.

Near Strangers!

It would be such a shame
to have lived, laughed and walked,
on the same grounds, both you and I,
to have crossed paths every single day
for so long, two years I'd say,
but to have never said a word
to have not known the other
to leave unacquainted
to have never known the person you were
and not know if I'd missed out on a friend.

Believe me I know

It must feel so terrible
to be turned down every time
to be turned inside out
and salted when raw
Believe me, I know
been there, burnt so many times
scarred for so long now
that the pain no longer shows
it just...burns and glows.

Too long you have left me here to die,
not anymore, not this time.....

Uniform

I came across this song a few days back and I thought I'd add the lyrics here. Because they make a lot of sense, and are true in a twisted serene way. Its called uniform by bloc party

There was a sense of disappointment as we left the mall
All the young people looked the same
Wearing their masks of cool and disinterest
Commerce dressed up as rebellion
Because we are so handsome and we are so bored
So entertain us, tell me a joke
Make it long, make it last forever
Make it cruel just make me laugh
We can't be hurt
Drink to forget your blues on the weekend
Think about more things to buy
The TV taught me how to sulk and to love nothing
And how to grow my hair long
So why do you go picking fights that you will lose?
(When u have entertainment, when give you things to pass the time)
So why do you have to go thinking thoughts that are above you?
(You can be happy, just play dumb)
Well I was brave
And unique,
Intelligent,
A snowflake
I could have been a hero
No-one can be trusted over the age of 14
Tattoo our arms
Converse shoes
Cynical
But we still do it
We tell ourselves that we're different
I've gotten so good at lying to myself
All, all my pain and honour is used up
All my guns are rusted
So when are you going to realise those are not your wrongs to right
Have another line, have another drink
(Pop songs won’t change the government)
I am a martyr I just need a motive
I am a martyr I just need a cause
I'm a believer I just need to a moment
I'm a believer I just need a cause
We're finding it hard to break the mould
We are finding it so hard to be alone
We're finding it hard to have time by ourselves
We have nothing at all to say
Uniform
There was a sense of disappointment as we sped away
All the teenagers looked the same

Come away

Come burn this evasive dream,
Haunted nights it’s led me to.
Come let’s walk quietly away,
Lead me to somewhere new.